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Conrad has been quiet for the last hour. I don'€™t know what I said, but he isn't speaking to me.

We are at the movie center after I insisted, which I don'€™t think that's the problem.

It's 6 pm, and Conrad tells me he needs to attend to something.

Maybe that'€™s his way of detaching from someone. That's why he was so good at it. I'm alone in my apartment again.

It's clean to say the least, and my fridge is stocked up with groceries. I see some shopping bag from the store earlier, with everything I tried on. What is this?

I thought he doesn'€™t do emotions, and this stuff?

I spent the whole of Sunday trying to figure out what he meant by the gift. Sunday evening I'm alone trying to make ramen when I hear a knock on my door.

First instincts tell me it's Conrad. I don'€™t believe it, but I am excited somewhere at the pit of my stomach.

My inner goddess is doing a dance of victory.

I open the door, and Liam is standing outside. My excitement laps back, and I think he see the disappointing look on my face.

" expecting someone else ?"he asked looking back .

"Nope, no one just you. Liam " 

" Hey When did you get back ?" " two hours ago " 

Do you know how to make ramen? I'm hungry. I tried to place an order for the fifth time, and he got the order wrong. Please save me, Edie" .i nod, walking back with him into his beautiful home.

It's a nice, cozy, homey feeling.

Nice painting, I say to a painting of a woman.

" That'€™s my ex, Edie. I just haven'€™t brought myself to take it down.I wish Conrad was a little like Liam" 

" Well, what’s the story there?" He chuckles.

" She got a job offer in London and took it before even telling me " I gasped.

" you do long distance?"€ He flushed with a glistening smile.

" I do, Edie, but she said she couldn'€™t continue because she doesn'€™t concentrate on her work" I see he still has feelings for her and I think I'm falling for Conrad So I decide to use Liam to get Conrad's attention .I picked up his phone.I kissed Liam mouth to mouth, tongue to tongue.I snapped a picture and handed his phone to him. 

" This works like magic " I said.

I cooked a big bowl of ramen with boiled eggs .

We were both eating when he stared at the picture once more.

" I don'€™t think this will work" I grabbed the phone from his hand and uploaded it to his Instagram.

" €œIf this works, I owe you a spa date " I grin.

" It will, and you will have to pay up, bro " he flushed.

After three hours, his phone started to beep. I grabbed his bowl and headed into the kitchen to give him room to speak to her.

He walked into the kitchen later and gave me a hug.

€œIt worked, Edie, it worked" I flush but the person I want to see it hasn't called me .

" Really? What did she say?" I asked, and he flushes "She asked who the girl is and if I'm dating again. She told me she is still single, and still love me " I he gave me a high five.

"What did you say to her?" I was excited, my mind isn't thinking about Conrad and the tension he left in me.

I told her I'm getting to know people, and Edie just happens to live in my building" We've been spending time together. She sounded like she was about to cry, should I call her back ?" I nod no .

" don't you might never get her back wait a few days and see, a few more posts might do the trick " 

It's a lie I want to get Conrad's attention .

It's a long week. It'€™s Thursday evening and Liam is having the boys over. He pleads with me to help him set up the house with him. I agree because I might see Conrad before I leave.

" When do we make another post? " Liam whispers, and I let out a subtle smile. I take up his phone and take a picture of us in a cozy, cuddled-up space.

I give him a caption for his post, then Scotty and Conrad both walk into Liam's apartment. Just at the same time, his phone begins to ring. I seat help but wonder if it's his other ladies calling.

I walk back to the kitchen, setting up the snacks Liam ordered earlier.

I'm in my head when Conrad walks into the kitchen. He slams the door, startling me.

" Holy mother of God" Conrad, I say. He'€™s not smiling, his expression is impassive.

" What is this game you are playing, Edie? You were with me on Friday and the whole day Saturday, and on Sunday evening, you had no problem kissing my best friend?" He sounds jealous.

" Conrad, I don't owe you any explanation, not after how you left me out on the street that night" I say.

It shouldn't bother me but it is .

" So it's true, you are toying with my friend and me ?" "want to tell him it’s all a misunderstanding when Tia walks into the kitchen.

"Conrad, the game has started" Tia frowns at him " €œYeah, yeah, I'm going"€ He gives me a wicked glare just before he leaves . " Edie, please don't play with fire or you might get burnt" Tia says with concern in her eyes.

I'm already playing with fire, I think he already burnt me.

I'm not sure if I want to admit that I am falling for Conrad.

I step outside and Liam is chatting with Heather, his girlfriend. He is showing me his chats and Conrad is staring at me intently, his gaze unwavering.

I feel a hot sensation in my lower sex, his blue eyes are intoxicating. I try to pay attention to the game or to Liam, but his steady scrutiny makes it hard for me.

Does he enjoy doing this, or is it just how he gets into people's heads? Liam whispers something I don't even hear, and it brings me blushing. I don'€™t think I can handle it much longer.

He eases himself on the couch, further resting his head. A dark frown crawls up Conrad'€™s brows, he is angry at me, I can tell.But why?

He is the one that doesn't want anything to do with relationships .

I stand up and head for the door, out of sight. They say it's out of mind, but not with Conrad. Even while I study my lines for the next day, he is in my head, invading my thoughts with his scent, his touch, his raw need for me or was it just sex and I didn't mean anything more to him ?.

The thought drives me crazy, I climb up my bed. 

Forcing myself sleep which eventually works cause .I wake up to the alarm ringing.

" Edie, it's unlike you to still be in bed by this time of the day " Tia tells me I see it's ten, I have a twelve o'clock show to anchor, so I dash into the bathroom.